Dear Visitor,

If you have accidentally stumbled upon this blog, do not expect anything more than shameful self centered soul searching and morbid self pity.

If you are into this stuff, expect more questions than answers.

You have been warned. Continue at your peril.

So….Hi, I might be the laziest person in the world. You see, I wasn’t always this way. I have lost the zeal for life.

Why should one live in the first place? Why am I programmed with this competitive urge to be better than others? Why must I prove myself repeatedly to retain some sense of self? When death is the one ultimate absolute to life. All the mundane things I do seem, well, inane.

Tried religion and spirituality. Stuff helps with inner peace. Bhagavatgita, a manual on how to live successfully says, do your duty impartially, without thought to the fruits of your labor. Pretty good advice. However, it doesn’t address my problem. Religion is primarily aimed at people who wish to make something of their lives. Don’t get me wrong, I like religion. It helps keep our minds off death with a torture and rewards program tacked on to afterlife. Perhaps our puny minds need that to keep from self destructing. I don’t have enough life experience to draw a definitive conclusion.

Perhaps, just perhaps, there is no purpose to our existence. It is a devastating truth to be confronted by someone raised on wholesome Disney. After some reflection, I feel a profound sense of relief. If there is no set destiny, then its all up to me. I get to define my purpose. This unfortunately puts the onus squarely on my shoulders. What a crushing responsibility. Just the thought inevitably leads to binge watching the latest Netflix produced super hero series. Escapism is addictive.

Well for now that is where I’m stuck in this thought process. Figured some blogging, the definitive soul cleansing tool of my generation, might help clear this block.

Love,

Selfdestructo

PS: I used the the word ‘I’ 14 times in this post and I was jobless enough to count. Hence the name, lazyhaze.

PS2: Year one is a batman reference, just in case a curious soul wonders!

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108 thoughts on “LazyHaze: Year One

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  2. Hello Lady Lazyhaze – this search for meaning has perplexed many humans through the ages, so you are not alone. It is refreshing to drop all the -isms to see what’s really there, for you, untainted by other people’s social constructs and constraints. Sometimes we are set adrift by life’s blows and feel rudderless. That can be a scary and humbling experience.
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  3. Took some time to read through your posts. Loved them…refreshing, insightful, and am in sync with your worldview. Will have to catch up on my reading, though! You might enjoy Seeking Jordan. Another surprising development in my worldview.

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  4. Thank you for stopping by my blog and bringing me here. Very profound thoughts… looks like we both would get along perfectly well 🙂 About the Bhagavath Gita, there is a lot more said regarding the conductance of our existence in it… Try the Vivekachudamani for more clarity 🙂

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      1. Uncertainty is part of the package…an ironic feature of being gifted…others often recognize your unique talents before you do…hence, the uncertainty….so, let me encourage you…it is a privilege to do any small thing I can to help those who are willing to contribute to the good and the beauty in this world 🙂

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    1. Well nihilism is attractive to me…but at the same time it is not compatible with my instinct to survive…so, for now I’m seeking to define my purpose myself, regardless of preexisting societal norms.

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  16. It sounds as if you need a purpose in your life. I’m a believer in the true God, Jehovah. His people here on the earth have published books and articles all about achieving and maintaining a purpose in life. The simple reason is that the purpose is achieved through a relationship with Jehovah that helps one to see that what lies ahead of us as passengers on this planet is a vast cleanup of the population.

    The Bible expresses this at many places. but a favourite of mine is at Proverbs 2:21, 22, where it speaks of the righteous being preserved alive to enjoy a cleansed earth, while the bad guys are “torn away from” the earth.

    Now you’re talking. Isn’t that precisely what you would expect from a God of “love.”

    Also, He promises to restore life to the dead of the ages, war dead, illness dead, old-age dead, your parents, grandparents, if they are no longer living. Marvellous.

    No matter where in the world you are living, Jehovah’s Witnesses do call at your home from time to time. When they do, ask them for a free copy of “What Does the Bible Really Teach?” open to page 110 and read the text associated with the picture of the teacher with the problem written up on the blackboard, It explains in quite fascinating terms what is causing all of the problems in our world today.

    Regards and best wishes.

    professoreugene – Canada 2016-12-25

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      1. Good. Neither do I. But, for the work Jesus commissioned at Matthew 24:14, it would HAVE TO HAVE some type of organization, because 12 men had to preach the “good news” to the entire population of the globe, which would be impossible for them to accomplish without some form of organization.

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        1. True and they did a great job of spreading his word. However, religion is a double edged sword. It has been used by people for their own purposes many times. I would rather stay away and try to find god in my own way. That is probably arrogant of me. However, I have faith that he will not lead me wrong.

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  18. Thank you for stopping by my blog. I loved your writings and am very glad that I got to read them. 😊
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