Dear Visitor,
If you have accidentally stumbled upon this blog, do not expect anything more than shameful self centered soul searching and morbid self pity.
If you are into this stuff, expect more questions than answers.
You have been warned. Continue at your peril.
So….Hi, I might be the laziest person in the world. You see, I wasn’t always this way. I have lost the zeal for life.
Why should one live in the first place? Why am I programmed with this competitive urge to be better than others? Why must I prove myself repeatedly to retain some sense of self? When death is the one ultimate absolute to life. All the mundane things I do seem, well, inane.
Tried religion and spirituality. Stuff helps with inner peace. Bhagavatgita, a manual on how to live successfully says, do your duty impartially, without thought to the fruits of your labor. Pretty good advice. However, it doesn’t address my problem. Religion is primarily aimed at people who wish to make something of their lives. Don’t get me wrong, I like religion. It helps keep our minds off death with a torture and rewards program tacked on to afterlife. Perhaps our puny minds need that to keep from self destructing. I don’t have enough life experience to draw a definitive conclusion.
Perhaps, just perhaps, there is no purpose to our existence. It is a devastating truth to be confronted by someone raised on wholesome Disney. After some reflection, I feel a profound sense of relief. If there is no set destiny, then its all up to me. I get to define my purpose. This unfortunately puts the onus squarely on my shoulders. What a crushing responsibility. Just the thought inevitably leads to binge watching the latest Netflix produced super hero series. Escapism is addictive.
Well for now that is where I’m stuck in this thought process. Figured some blogging, the definitive soul cleansing tool of my generation, might help clear this block.
Love,
Selfdestructo
PS: I used the the word ‘I’ 14 times in this post and I was jobless enough to count. Hence the name, lazyhaze.
PS2: Year one is a batman reference, just in case a curious soul wonders!
Thanks for liking my post that too on my Hindi blog which no one visits. It was a surprise. Soul searching is always self centered and not at all shameful. We all do time to time. What we may come up is an individual experience.
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True…I was just throwing in some dark comedy
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🙂
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I really did like your poem…it’s time we showed off some girl power…also, I loved reading in Hindi..it has been so long 🙂
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Thanks.
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This is a really well written first post, really enjoyed reading!! Looking forward to reading more of your blog, hope you’ll check out/follow mine https://myhappycornerblog.wordpress.com
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Thank you!
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Hello Lady Lazyhaze – this search for meaning has perplexed many humans through the ages, so you are not alone. It is refreshing to drop all the -isms to see what’s really there, for you, untainted by other people’s social constructs and constraints. Sometimes we are set adrift by life’s blows and feel rudderless. That can be a scary and humbling experience.
I do hope and wish for you that you will find your own unique path and put your precious skills to use in a way that pleases you and serves humankind.
Thanks for following Beauty Along the Road.
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Thank you for the encouragement.
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I’m humbled alright! I don’t think anyone can realize the extent of their arrogance till the hammer falls, and the very notion of your ‘self’ is shattered.
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Took some time to read through your posts. Loved them…refreshing, insightful, and am in sync with your worldview. Will have to catch up on my reading, though! You might enjoy Seeking Jordan. Another surprising development in my worldview.
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Thank you for taking the time. Some of my posts are quite long! Still getting the hang of blogging. I will check out seeking jordan. Have a great day.
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Haha, yes…”getting the hang of” is my MO at the moment, too. I love this community! My thinking goes here. My intake is out there.;) And my boys frown on my emojis!
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I’m starting to enjoy blogging too…no boys yet…so it’s all good :p
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Pleased to meet you.
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And I you. I enjoyed your post about Kaname Harada. We need to listen to wisdom.
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Thank you.
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Really like how what you write effortlessly flows.
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Thank you. It takes quite a bit of effort to write though🙃
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Sure it does. Good things don’t come easy. 🙂
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That is an unfortunate truth for us lazy heads to swallow 😪
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Haha….we all have our struggles. 🙂
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Thank you for stopping by my blog and bringing me here. Very profound thoughts… looks like we both would get along perfectly well 🙂 About the Bhagavath Gita, there is a lot more said regarding the conductance of our existence in it… Try the Vivekachudamani for more clarity 🙂
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It was my pleasure. I liked your response to fragile 🙂
Thank you for the recommendation. I will look it up.
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Thanks so much 🙂 I really didn’t know what to write that night, so literally translated my running thoughts into words… very glad you liked it 🙂
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Also, thank you for your kind words 😊
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Hi
I was just reading about Vivekachudamani. Thank you for referring me to a work by Adi Shankaracharya. I listen to his composition, Bhaja Govindam, every morning and I absolutely love it.
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Woah! Taking my suggestion seriously… thank you so much… I feel good 🙂 Do you find it insightful?
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I just read about it😛…hunting for a copy online…I’ll have to order it off of amazon otherwise 🤔
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No need… I’ll mail you 🙂 Very happy to have found an interesting soul! Your id?
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anusha_coolstar@yahoo.com
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Thank you and back at you😋
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Haha _/\_
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Hi there, I have nominated you for the Versatile Blogger Award!
https://secondtymblogger.wordpress.com/2016/09/18/an-award-for-me-really/
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Thank you for your kind consideration. This was very unexpected as I’m new to blogging. 🙂
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Congratulations!
I have nominated your blog for the Versatile Blogger Award.
More about this nomination is at
https://atrangizindagieksafar.wordpress.com/2016/09/20/the-versatile-blogger-award/
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Thank you very much for reading my blog and for considering it worthy of the award 😊
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Thank you 🙂
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I don’t think I’ve read a better written nor more interesting “About Me” page. Makes me rethink my own, haha. I look forward to reading more from you.
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Thank you. You are making me blush😊
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haha, you’re quite welcome.
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Thank you 🙂
Were you talking about my standard disclaimer?
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Loved your honesty here! That’s been my struggle too. Lately, I got hooked in this blogging stuff and those things seem not to matter most of the time. Anyway, I have nominated you for the 3 days 3 quotes challenge. It is not mandatory to take it up. But if you want to haave some fun, here is the link:
https://purposivewriter.wordpress.com/2016/10/02/three-days-three-quotes-challenge-day-1/
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Thank you😊 Its good to meet people in the same boat.
I just finished a 3 day 3 quote challenge…but it will be fun to do it again…💃🏻…I will start tomorrow.
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Oh. congratulations! yeah, it would be much fun to do it the second time around. Thank you. 🙂
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Love, love, love (:
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Perhaps that is also the answer to my dilemma 🤔
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Love is always good ❤
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I agree that there is probably no reason for our existence – just a happy accident or not depending on your viewpoint. I wonder if other species think they are the top of the food chain?
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They probably do…before getting shot that is.
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😛
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Very nice to learn and meet you. Thank you for following my blog, I will certainly take time to visit yours as well. I hope your day is a happy one! 🙂
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Same here😊
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Thank you so much for liking my post (“You’ve Got To Fight For Your Right To Part-ee”), and for “following” me…it brought me to you. I appreciate your writings so much…your “About” is delightful and refreshing in its unvarnished, yet very articulate, way. I am charmed and intrigued by your manner of self-expression. I look forward to reading, and learning more…you are obviously wise and smart enough to know that there is much to learn. Thanks for sharing 🙂 By the way, my name is Truly. Lovely to meet you 🙂
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Very nice to meet you, Truly. Thank you for visiting and for all the lovely compliments. I have been brought up to be smart, but I don’t know about wise. Hopefully, these days of uncertainty will pass soon 🙃
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Uncertainty is part of the package…an ironic feature of being gifted…others often recognize your unique talents before you do…hence, the uncertainty….so, let me encourage you…it is a privilege to do any small thing I can to help those who are willing to contribute to the good and the beauty in this world 🙂
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Thank you…I appreciate the comments and the help😊
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🙂
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Hi! I could have sworn I’ve been to this site before but after browsing
through some of the articles I realized it’s new to me.
Regardless, I’m certainly pleased I stumbled upon it and I’ll be
bookmarking it and checking back often!
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Thank you 🙂
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Hi! Thanks a lot for the follow!
Pleased to meet you! 🙂
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Pleased to meet you too…thanks for visiting 😊
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My pleasure!^^
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Have nominated you for the three-days-three-quotes-challenge!! 🙂
You can find the rules here: https://arjunshivaram.wordpress.com/2016/10/12/three-days-three-quotes-challenge-day-2/
Do participate 🙂
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Thank you…I will 🙂
Might take some time though.
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Sure no problem 🙂
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Wow.
Are you a nihilist then? I can’t imagine ever living with the belief that there is no purpose to life.
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Well nihilism is attractive to me…but at the same time it is not compatible with my instinct to survive…so, for now I’m seeking to define my purpose myself, regardless of preexisting societal norms.
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So I take it you don’t ascribe to any existing philosophical theory?
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I like epicureanism…but I guess I don’t really stick to any philosophy 🤔
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It is appropriate time to make some plans for the future and it
is time to be happy. I have read this post and if I could I wish to suggest you some interesting things or advice.
Maybe you can write next articles referring to
this article. I wish to read more things about it!
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Thank you for visiting. I’m still contemplating the continuation to this piece. You will see it when I have it. 😋 I would appreciate your advice.
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I needed to thank you for this fantastic read!! I absolutely loved every little
bit of it. I have got you book marked to look at new things you
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Thank you. I would love to have you back 🙂
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Good day! This is kind of off topic but I need some guidance from an established blog.
Is it difficult to set up your own blog? I’m not very technical but I can figure things out pretty fast.
I’m thinking about making my own but I’m not sure where to begin. Do you have
any tips or suggestions? Cheers
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It is fairly easy…wordpress does most of the work for you..all you need to do is make an account, choose a theme for your blog and get started.
Once you start, you can check out Daily Post’s blogging U, they have a 15 day free blogging fundamentals course that will guide you.
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Hello LazyHaze! I wanted to visit and express my appreciation for your visiting and following my blog, “Lab Notes” recently. Thank you!
I love your images! You have a great eye for visuals. I hope you are continuing to look for unusual and fascinating things to photograph. Thanks again! – Theresa
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It was my pleasure🙂…thank you for the encouragement.
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Yes, of course! Very original! 🙂
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😃 Thank you to follow my blog 😊
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My pleasure 😬
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Thank you for visiting:)
Sorry…I’m not good with the tech stuff.
Let me know if you find anything out there, cause I’ve tried to do the same with zero results.
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Thank you 🙂
My blog is not devoted to anything in particular, so I don’t have any solid recommendations for you. There are many blogs here on WordPress which are similar. Just browse around 😀
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Yours is a prime example of interesting writing.
I think my students could learn lots from your way of writing and your
articles. I may share this article with them.
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Thank you 🙂
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With havin so much content do you ever run into
any problems of plagorism or copyright infringement? My website
has a lot of completely unique content I’ve either written myself
or outsourced but it seems a lot of it is popping it up
all over the internet without my agreement. Do you know any
ways to help protect against content from being stolen? I’d certainly appreciate it.
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Thank you for visiting. I have no idea about this particular problem. May be you should go to a more experienced blogger or to someone who can give you legal advice.
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It sounds as if you need a purpose in your life. I’m a believer in the true God, Jehovah. His people here on the earth have published books and articles all about achieving and maintaining a purpose in life. The simple reason is that the purpose is achieved through a relationship with Jehovah that helps one to see that what lies ahead of us as passengers on this planet is a vast cleanup of the population.
The Bible expresses this at many places. but a favourite of mine is at Proverbs 2:21, 22, where it speaks of the righteous being preserved alive to enjoy a cleansed earth, while the bad guys are “torn away from” the earth.
Now you’re talking. Isn’t that precisely what you would expect from a God of “love.”
Also, He promises to restore life to the dead of the ages, war dead, illness dead, old-age dead, your parents, grandparents, if they are no longer living. Marvellous.
No matter where in the world you are living, Jehovah’s Witnesses do call at your home from time to time. When they do, ask them for a free copy of “What Does the Bible Really Teach?” open to page 110 and read the text associated with the picture of the teacher with the problem written up on the blackboard, It explains in quite fascinating terms what is causing all of the problems in our world today.
Regards and best wishes.
professoreugene – Canada 2016-12-25
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Thank you for your concern. I do have a wonderful and very personal relationship with god. However, I do not believe in any form of organized religion.
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Good. Neither do I. But, for the work Jesus commissioned at Matthew 24:14, it would HAVE TO HAVE some type of organization, because 12 men had to preach the “good news” to the entire population of the globe, which would be impossible for them to accomplish without some form of organization.
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True and they did a great job of spreading his word. However, religion is a double edged sword. It has been used by people for their own purposes many times. I would rather stay away and try to find god in my own way. That is probably arrogant of me. However, I have faith that he will not lead me wrong.
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Wonderful blog! Do you have any hints for aspiring writers?
I’m hoping to start my own blog soon but I’m a little lost
on everything. Would you suggest starting with a free platform like WordPress or go for
a paid option? There are so many choices out there that I’m completely confused ..
Any tips? Kudos!
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Thank you
It is better to go for a free platform in the beginning.
Good Luck!
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Thank you for stopping by my blog. I loved your writings and am very glad that I got to read them. 😊
Nice description about yourself there, haha. I guess you like animes and mangas. I am crazy about them too. Hope to know you better, my friend. hehe😄😁👍
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I loved your snippets too…nice to meet you😁
Which anime/manga are you into?
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I watch a lot of animes. Action/fantasy/sports/slice of life. like, naruto, one piece, haikyuu, deathnote, many many more. And read mangas too, whichever intrigues me.
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Haaa…same here…it’s always so exciting to meet a fellow otaku😃
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haha… exactly.. 😄😁
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Thank you for the follow. You have a very interesting blog.
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Glad you liked it 😊
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Hey there! Someone in my Facebook group shared this site with
us so I came to take a look. I’m definitely loving the information. I’m book-marking and will be tweeting
this to my followers! Excellent blog and great design.
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Thank you for dropping by and for sharing it with your followers:)
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